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I want to fly away

this is my little corner of that huge technological innovation they call the internet, if you take a moment to pass the time and see, maybe you'll get to know me better, if you know me at all. <><

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Never Perfect. But Perfectly Forgiven.

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

All Hail Mr. Failure

Sixth time lucky?

I Don't think so.

Monday, June 19, 2006

long time no see

Hello,

Its been ages!!! tonnes of reasons why, mostly my screwy inernet connection, plus some blogger maintainance and other stuff, but here I am!
I'm not in a very bloggy mod right now but I kindof feel like I should pay some attention to it, it seems a little left out.

Well what an adventure, I'm skipping town and it feels so odd! Its taken me ages to decide and a lot of deliberation. I got a bit worried lately about going and having second thoughts and stuff but basically well, I'm going now, no turning back either coz' all y bridges at newman are thoroughly burnt!

I said goodbye on friday, its amazing the ammount of friends I never knew I had! all these people telling me they'll miss me and that I was such a good friend, you know all last week I was out every night eating with people, going for walks having jam sessions , just having a pretty cool time, I should have toldthem I was leaving at the start of the year! I was at the bar on friday night will i closed at 2am, then went out on the "balcony" (scaffolding where they'e putting in new windows, I wknow we shouldn't but its very cool and you can climb right out on to it from the windows in A block) and watched the morning come in till I eventually crashed at 4 in the morning. It was a great night, I even let my hair down (literally) and did a little headbanging to bon jovi, they were rather impressed with my air guitar solo.

But now its all over, I cansee now that although it was fun for a bit i don't think i would have lasted there. It wasn't a wrong decision, I think its served its purpose being at Newman but now its time to move on. Its been fun (kinda') an experience to say the least now hopefully I've got a new beginning ahead of me. I wonder what I'll be writing here after my first year at york, well lets wait and see, I hope it'll be good, I hope its the right thing to do!

Well for someone who isn't really in a blogging mood I'vesaid quite enough I think. this is Matthew Marshall signing off for the evening.

God bless <><

Thursday, June 01, 2006

Humility/Arrogance

There can be a fine line between the two, although most of the time people would see them as polar opposites. I don't like being arrogant, I try not to be, but then what good are you to anyone if you are so humble that you never do anything anyway becasue you don't want to get in the way? Its all so confusing. I Read this today, I'm not sure whether it helps to get all of that in focus or whether it just blows it all out of proportion. Its still just as hard to grasp, but I see the point, why be small when you've been created to be so much bigger? Why deny your gifts if you've been given them? Why not set an example if you've been equipped to do that? It makes sense you know.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

Nelson Mandela.