Tomorrow I go, I fly the nest, I leave home, maybe for the last time as a permanent resident here. I'm just about to pack up my computer so before I do I'll Just say a few words; AARGH!
Well, as a bloke at college may once have said; I'm absolutely "bricking it", its all a bit too late for cold feet now but man is it freaky. To be honest I'm just worried that I'll make a hash of it, with everything, ok so Its my first year in York, but my second of Uni so basically, it all counts but well I'm not the first to be in this situation I'm sure, I could cope with that. But then I've got to fit in, not one of my strong points, well not always. So ok, maybe I fins some friends, great, but then I'll have to find some people in my own year too (no one else in Halls will be year 2) THEN I'll have to get to know Rachel's friends too, who undoubtedly will be completely different to mine and then we'll have the same problem we've had the last three years, me not getting along with any of the people she knew, then that'll create a conflict of interests adding yet more tension to what we already have, which is, well, an unfortunately less than desireable situation. Don't get me wrong,I want to be with rachel, she's great, I love her, for crying out loud I moved half way across the country to be with her and threw all my own plans out the window in the process. But unfortuantely its not going to solve all the other problems, namely her folks, perticularly that thing that calls itself her mother, you know it even told rachel that in october when my new neice or nephew comes arrives she's not ALLOWED to come and visit with me!?!?!?!?!?! -.-
Anyway, don't get me started, but you get the idea - not impressed.
Why can't life just be simple, and happy and smiley? :'(
Well I've got plenty to contend with and the main reason I'm so worried about going away is that this adventure is either going to make or break me, I've put all my eggs in one rather rickety basket and am driving it across country, oh yea, and STILL without a licence! Point being, if this doesn't work I'm gonna be screwed, but if it did, it may turn out to be one of the best decisions I ever made.
I've had questions, without answers
I've known sorrow, i have known pain
but theres one thing, that i'll cling to
you are faithful, Jesus your true
when hope is lost, i'll call you saviour
when pain surrounds, i'll call you healer
when silence falls, you'll be the song within my heart
in the lone hour, of my sorrow
through the darkest night of my soul
you surround me, and sustain me
my defender, forever more
when hope is lost, i'll call you saviour
when pain surrounds, i'll call you healer
when silence falls, you'll be the song within my heart
I will praise you, i will praise you
when the tears fall, still i will sing to you
i will praise you, Jesus praise you
Through the suffereing still i will sing
when hope is lost, i'll call you saviour
when pain surrounds, i'll call you healer
when silence falls, you'll be the song within my heart
I've had questions, without answers
I've known sorrow, i have known pain
but theres one thing, that i'll cling to
you are faithful, Jesus your true
when hope is lost, i'll call you saviour
when pain surrounds, i'll call you healer
when silence falls, you'll be the song within my heart
I will praise you, i will praise you
when the tears fall, still i will sing to you
i will praise you, Jesus praise you
Through the suffereing still i will sing X2
when hope is lost, i'll call you saviour
when pain surrounds, i'll call you healer
when silence falls, you'll be the song within my heart
I hope so.
